I got sick right before a huge launch— and didn’t catastrophize or collapse. Here’s how.
So...
Have you ever been in a moment where you're right on the cusp of something big (finishing a huge project, releasing something out into the world, onboarding a new team member)—
and then your body shuts down?
This is EXACTLY what happened to me over the last week.
I had a flare-up of an old (non-contagious) illness that rears its head every so often... right as I was finishing my new mini-course. 👀
Old me would have gone STRAIGHT into catastrophic thinking.
"OMG THIS IS A SIGN THAT THIS WILL FAIL"
"Whenever I try to do anything good it never works out"
"I've promised to myself I'll get this done by [X date], I'll be so disappointed in myself if I don't"
And this would have launched me into one of two responses (or possibly both):
1) Hustle mode. "I have to escape the awful anxious feelings and I'm really not that sick anyways so GUESS WHAT? It's time to push through, HARD."
2) Collapse mode. "What's the point? Nobody cares anyways. All of my deadlines are arbitrary. I'm going to eat all the junk food since I already feel awful." (And then I'd float away into a cloud of Goal Amnesia binge-watching Selling Sunset)
Present-day me?
💐 I've processed a big chunk of the trauma behind that catastrophizing voice & so even if it still appears, it no longer runs the show.
💐 I know how to be with the grief & the fear that's underneath those thoughts and HOLD THEM with love. I know how to use those waves to clarify what I need & value.
💐 AND, I have healed the trauma cycles that kept me in overextending & overgiving, thinking that the only way to stay connected to the world & my loved ones is to break myself to perform.
Because of this, I can hold the duality: I deeply care about getting my work into the hands of the folks who need it, AND I can cherish myself to give myself the nourishment I need to recover.
From fixing, to supporting.
And so? I finished my mini-course. AND I rested, ate well, and relaxed. I didn't spiral into catastrophic thinking. I still went to dance class, cuddled with Pepper (one of our cats) and savored my garden.
THIS IS THE FREEDOM that comes with nervous system regulation.
And this is the way of working, operating & creating that I've reclaimed through somatic work.
If you want to take your first steps in this direction—
💫 Success Without Survival 💫,
my free 7-day mini-course,
is the absolute best place to start.
You deserve to have a life & business that you don't want to secretly escape from.
And this is how you build it.
See you inside.
xo,
Kate
P.S. If you know you'd like to do this deep work together, I'd love to chat with you & explore the options. Here's the link to sign up for a zero-pressure Connection Call. Can't wait to hear all about what's going on & potentially support you. ❤️
